Somehow two months got away from me

It really is amazing how quickly time goes by when you get really busy. I'm fully immersed in my job at the college, and fall classes are almost over. I've made some images this semester that I am very proud of, and I'll post them when I have time to scan them and get them uploaded. But then, even with the semester ending, I don't think the pace of my life will slow down all that much.

Work will be busier as we prepare for student enrollments for spring. The holidays are coming up and I am super nervous, because I know it will be hard on me to go through the next month without Hannah. The kids still have their extracurricular activities, on top of keeping me on my toes. And Odin isn't doing well. He goes back to the vet for a checkup tomorrow, but I'm pretty sure he's close to his end.

I'm not sharing any pictures with this post, because all of my edited pictures still need to be moved from the computer lab at school to my home computer. I intend to come back and add some later, though.

I'm going to Florida after Christmas. I need a break while the rest of my household goes skiing, and I'd really like to just hunt for shark teeth, and be able to enjoy the gulf for a while. So I'm going, and I'm taking the camera backpack with me. I'll have a lot of developing to do when the darkroom reopens in the spring semester.

In the meantime, I'm just trying to get through each day with some small illusion of peace. The grief is getting harder as I get closer to Hannah's birthday and the holidays, let alone the one year mark. It's been ten months and one day since I last spoke with her, and I am acutely aware of the passage of time without her every single day. I try for peace, because I need it and because I know she wouldn't want me to feel like this, but it's hard. I'm just looking forward to being done anticipating all of the firsts without her with a sense of dread. I hear that gets better after the first year. I really hope so.